I remember you at four years old, surrounded by your "lovies" so curious, so full of smiles and learning and conversations I found intelligent and interesting as you and the world discovered each other. I have discovered a felt sense of spirit so I trust some essence of your energy is in some constellation of energy somewhere, but I am sad to know we've lost your bodily self. I send love to all those who love you.

I think about you often, Josh. I miss your sharp wit and deep intelligence. I know that many things about this world caused you to suffer--to see that it was full of suffering for others and to know that despite all the intelligence and goodness, suffering would still exist. The world is a lesser place for your absence.

It's like the good doctor said, "Too weird to live, too rare to die." I know you and I differ on this belief, but I sure hope you're in heaven because I would love to dance with you again there. You know I love you. And you were right. Not about everything. But about that. Your dream was to go home as someone you could admire. I'm glad that came true. You awarded everyone the dignity that every single human being deserved. You walked your talk. You were a wonderful person and I'll miss you my friend.